More or less.

The same:
Job, parents, vaguely unhappy, has some sort of ailment, and still upset at one thing or another.

The difference on each:
Job:
I'm taking a few days off and my parents are responsible... I need to fit in more hours to make up for the FIFTEEN I'm losing thanks to them. I KNEW they would get in the way...

Parents:
I'm actually voicing my opinions and getting them to shut up. Like when they pulled the sex/drugs/alcohol crap on me again, I got angry and told them every reason why they should stfu. They listened... but in the meantime, I'm going to have to break their hearts. It's sad but I've come to terms with it... I'm not going to just lie down forever.

Vaguely unhappy:
It's shifted. This time, it is with myself. I'm not happy with me. I guess I was alright with being mediocre for myself... but now that I've found this great guy... I'm sort of realizing that I shouldn't just be drifting by. I want to be a better person... and actually live up to my potential. I'm pretty happy with my outside life as of now. For some god forsaken reason, Steven likes me for me... enough that he can spend time with me and start planning for the next time he sees me. Which is usually the next day or in the next three. Talk about tolerant. I haven't really seen much of my other friends though... I want to but I can't exactly go very far... and they all insist upon being far away. XP I'm happy with where my life is going... and I'm happy with the new people I've met and the good company I've been in... but thats sort of made me realize that I don't like what I see in the mirror. I could be better. So, I'm going to work on it.

Some sort of Ailment:
My stomach hurts again and my vision keeps going out. Stomach is from the unhealthy food I've been fed and my vision is from being constantly dehydrated. Woo.

Upset:
With me, the parents, and the fact that I still have no power.


New(like really):
Boyfriend: Steven. He's a total sweetheart. We're not too serious yet or anything and we're taking the relationship slow, as it should be. I've only known him for... what? A month and a half? I'm happy with him though. He's kind, funny, cute, and tolerant. I didn't think I'd meet a guy like him. It's a nice surprise. An even nicer one when he said that he really liked me. And it's really fucking funny when I watch peoples faces when I say: He's 21. XD

I'm fighting with my parents. Like, actually fighting. I'm growing up and caring less and less about what they say. I try and be nice and all, which is why I'm spending some time with them tomorrow instead of Cody, Anna, or Steven. They'll eventually break down... I know they will.

I'm not drawing/painting at all. I'm not doing anything, really. I'm being more social but whatever.




I guess that hits all of the bases... well enough anyway. Whatever, I'm really pissy today. Mainly because I realized how little power I have and how I've made trouble for other people for something I really don't give a shit about. Whatever...I still need to make some changes... At least I've found where my unhappiness lies. In my home.